Almost time!

I can't believe Helen is almost here.  I am incredibly excited, and truly believe that everything is going to be fine, but there is that little part of me that still wonders if this is really going to happen.  After four years of disappointment am I really going to have a healthy baby?  Although I have worried some about the pain, it is almost like I don't even care or think about that part anymore.  I just want Helen to be okay.  It is less than 3 weeks away.  Had some small contractions (I think ) today.  I am at station 3, 50% effaced and dilated 1cm.    My doctor goes out of town Sunday until Wednesday so we will see what happens with that.    I love Helen so much already.  She is our special angel.  I hope people will put up with us because I know we will be a little crazy about trying to raise her right.  God help us to raise a great child despite ourselves. :)